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So as I'm just making my last rounds here of the blog world thinking I'd be done as soon as I finish reading about Sarah's migraines, my wonderful wife, on her way to bed, so loving asks "are you gonna blog??!!" ...I guess I am... As if she also knew that I thought that very thought also adds, "you haven't blogged in forever."

I don't really know what to write so I'll keep it short (cause I really really want to get in bed and have the fan blow on me all night- Now THAT'S a little bit of heaven right there!! Nothing is new with us. I'm still waiting to hear back from NLV so I can know whats going to happen. The more time goes by the more I feel like it could go either way. I really feel like I've got about a 50/50 chance right now. We'll see. Stac keeps asking me if I don't get the job (thus giving us a reason and way to live here longer) can we move to Utah. I'm wondering about the possibility of living there should things with NLV fall through. Again, we'll just have to see.

Stac still wants to quit her job. There are several reasons why, but the biggest one is this- she wants to be at home with Zoee and start pumping me out some babies. Hell, it'd be nice if she was home more so we could maybe start practicing making some :) We're trying to figure things out but as of right now, we don't think we can get away with her not working at all. We've still got too many bills (mostly credit cards)to get paid down so we can move on with life. Again, we'll just have to see what we can work out. I'm wondering if I could manage 2 jobs so she can stay home. It's a bit of a challenge asking around and actually finding something that starts paying the same as what she's making now. I love her for sticking with it as long as she has but I don't see her lasting much longer. When you're burned out on a job, it doesn't matter how much you need the money, there's a certain level of happiness/do-able-ness/mental strain/tolerance you have to maintain to continue doing the same thing day after day after day. I think Stac is to the point where she's ready to leave and try something new. I support her with whatever she decides to do with her job. I have no right to ask her to stick with it when I know she's not happy and it makes her unhappy every day. Honestly, I'm just waiting to get a text from her while she's at work telling me that today will be her last day or that she just put her 2 weeks notice in. I still love her and want her to be happy.

Zoee is the cutest baby in the world!!!! Don't believe me? Just ask her, she'll tell you. She's getting so freakin cute every day. I have to say that she really has turned out to be a cute little girl! I love playing with her, I love that I get to spend my day with her, I love wrestling with her on the bed and getting to be wild with her. She's my life.

I'm cutting this off. I'm rambling and the fan in beckoning...