I have a lot of things on my mind today. I am just in one of those moods. What better way to get it all out than to blog? Here are some things that I have been thinking about.
1. My Parents.
Today is their 31st wedding anniversary. I talked to my dad today and asked him what he got for my mom. He told me he got her an innertube and new tire for her wheel barrow. I laughed. I wonder what it would be like to be married for 31 years. That is a really long time. I guess when you have been married that long, it is ok to give the person a wheel barrow tire because you know that is what will make them happy. It makes me happy that my parents are happy together still. I want to be like that when I have been married that long. I have always looked up to my parents. I don't remember very many times when I saw my mom and dad fight. I know they did and maybe they just fought in their bedroom so that we didn't have to see that. That was always reassuring. My parents have been and are still affectionate towards each other and I appreciate that. President David O. Mckay once said, "The best thing a father can do for his children is to let them see that he loves their mother." I agree and I feel so blessed to have seen that with my parents. Thanks mom and dad for being the best parents you knew how to be and for loving each other. I love you both. Congratulations on making it 31 years.
2. My little guy Gussy
I am SO in love with this boy!! I have always loved him but lately I have really fallen in love with him. I love his smell, I love his messy hair, I love his squishy legs, I love his slobbery loves, I love love love everything about this boy! It is amazing to me that we are sent these perfect little spirits and they rely on us for everything. They trust us and love us and we are responsible for teaching and raising them. The more I think about it, the more I realize the seriousness of our role as parents.
3. I am missing Zoee
Zoee is visiting my mom and dad in Utah. I miss her more this trip than I ever have. I miss her running around. I miss her willingness to help. I miss the funny things she says. I miss her laugh and her sweet kisses. I have felt so blessed lately to have two healthy beautiful children and I am forever grateful for both of them. I can't wait to see Zoee again and hold her and squeeze her. I am ok with her being up there because I know she is having fun. I know she is having the time of her life and that makes it ok that I miss her. She is happiest when she is there and that makes me happy. I do miss her like crazy though.
4. The world coming to an end.
I think I might be a little more nervous about the world coming to an end than I should be. I guess it's true what they say that if we are prepared we shall not fear. Well, I am not prepared so I am scared. I can't say that I am ready or that I am ok with it. I am scared. I am scared that things are getting so expensive that we soon won't be able to make it. I am scared that we will run out of food and the food that is left will be too hard to get. I guess there is a solution to this worry. Get prepared. The leaders of the church have been telling us for years to do it and they aren't saying so much about it now. Now is the time that we should have been preparing for . I am just a little bit nervous.
5. My calling
I know I will be released from my calling soon. It is bitter sweet. I don't think I am ready to be done with it. I was just starting to feel comfortable and ok with it. I guess that is when the Lord decides to shake things up a bit. It is all about learning and growing but I was fine where I was at. I want to stay!
6. Humbled.
My sister in law told me about a blog of one of her friends. This person has suffered a serious loss and as I was reading it, I realized how blessed I am and how much I take things for granted. I need to stop worrying so much. I need to spend more time enjoying the little things. I need to stop saying, "if only we had this" or "if only I could do this." That is a wast of time.
7. Helpless.
My older brother is going to be a dad soon. I do not have the best relationship with him due to things that have happened in the past. I am a stubborn one and have held a grudge against him for quite some time. I want to help the baby. I want to do something for this new nephew of mine but I don't know what to do. I tried to contact my brother to ask him but that didn't go so well. It took a lot to lower my pride and contact him and when I didn't get the response I thought I should I felt sad and helpless. Mostly for the baby.
So I have some pretty deep things on my mind. Most of my thinking is good, like my kids and my parents and who will DeAnna pick on the Bachelorette. Life is sometimes tricky but luckily we have a lot of good to get us by.
9 comments:
Oh no you didn't just include DeAnna!? You crack me up so often, Stac. It's nice to get a glimpse into that cute head of yours . . . we'll discuss this more tonight, I'm sure. Love ya!
Just keep doing what is right, work on the preparedness and "it will work out" to quote Pres. Hinckley. There's not much we can do about a lot of things, so we just need to work on what we can and trust in Him.
Hi Stacy,
This is most likely not the best place to write this but, I do have to say that I was super excited when Melissa told me she landed on your blog, because I have been trying to find you. I can never thank you enough for saving my life all those years ago, for your friendship, cards, kindness and welcoming arms. You truly made my time in St. George some of the best years of my life and I often look at the pictures of the good times we had. I think of Thomas, your family and until I found your blog have wondered how life is treating you. It looks like all is going well and your kids are darling! I am so glad to see that you are doing so well and that you have found such a great man. I miss you and need to tell you Happy belated birthday. My new little nephew shares the same birthday with you and all day I thought about a way to contact you... so here you have it.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! Anyway, don't mean to ramble, just want you to know how thankful I am that I was able to be a part of your life for that short while.. You truly are a blessing to me and am sorry for the things that transpired. I would love to catch up next time you are up if you would like. You are one of Heavenly Fathers Finest and anyone that has the opportunity to know you is truly a better person and forever blessed.
P.S. Do I have anything in my teeth??
p.s.s. I am pulling for Jason..I just love little Ty.
very well said, nice and deep. If i say what's on my mind right now I will be a big ol' puddle of tears. On the other hand where do i get off complaining and crying when life could be alot worse, I would love to have my dad back to normal, but hey, atleast he isn't in a coma anymore, I guess i need a reality check every now and then. what more could you ask for than a wonderful, and beautiful family, especially your hunky husband and bee-utiful kids!
Stac!! WE love you! just thought we would let you know. We saw Zoee the other day. She is the cutest. way to go.. Can't wait to see you soon!
Stac,
I LOVED this post. Sometimes all of us just need to take a step back and realize what is really important in life. I love your parents and your family. They have done a wonderful job raising all of you!
Your kids are darling,an I would like to think I know exactly what you are saying when you say you have really FALLEN in love with Gus. That is the way I feel about Bent lately too! We are so much the same(Bent has that dress that Zo has on)
Keep chugging along and keep watching things like the Bachelorette, it helps us forget the woes of the world and pretend to be in a fairytale for a minute! Love Ya!
That was the sweetest post! Your kids have the most gorgeous eyes!! And I love your parents...they are so cute and hilarious! Are you coming up for the 4th of July festivities? My family and I are running in the Huntsville race and having breakfast in the park...maybe we'll see you there
Great post!! You really covered a lot of ground. I, too am trying to focus on good things and get through all the other stuff. There are just too many things to worry about and if we dwell on that stuff, we'll miss too much. I just love your tribute to your parents and your little family. You and Nate are doing a great job.
Hey Stacy (er, Sister Layton!) of course I remember you. And besides, who in the world could ever forget sister clark??! I'm glad to read you're doing well- your kids ARE so cute..I agree, squishy little snuggly boys are the best.
My parents still talk about the legendary Sister missionaries that taught them. I feel sorry for all the rest that have tried to follow up after ya'll!
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