This is the 3rd week; I guess that makes it a habit.

They say that if you do something for 3 weeks it will become a habit. This is now my 3rd blog attempt in 3 weeks, so I have no other reason but to believe that this is now my sunday night habit.

I've been feeling pretty reflective this past week or so. I've found myself feeling pretty contemplative over the past week or so about things in my life, things I want in my life, things I don't, and things that make life good; the good stuff. I don't know why, I just have. There are times I feel like nothing will ever be good, we're always going to be in debt, always going to be stuck in life where we are, never be able to work our way up to what we want to have in life. And there are times more optimistic that I feel the totally opposite of all that stuff. And I think it's those moments that I have been more satisfied with. I'll try to explain. Things really aren't as bad as we feel at a particular moment. Here are some of the moments I think about. We really aren't that unhappy as a married couple. In fact, we are pretty damn happy together! We love each other so much. Stac and I love the opportunity that we have to spend days together. Because of our schedule, we feel like we don't get much together time, but when we do get it, usually on the weekend, we love it. We get to be with Zoee at the same time, we get to escape from Zoee at the same time, we just get to invest time in each other, and that makes us happy. I love being married. Another thing is that I have Zoee. I have a little girl, this little person, that I helped create. I am still amazed that this little happy girl came from me and Stac. She is so smart and loving. She relies on me for her life. She couldn't eat if I didn't feed her. She couldn't be happy if i didn't change her diapers. She couldn't get out of her bed (or in it) if It weren't for me. She is totally reliant on me as a dad. And being a dad makes me happy. Here's another thing. I am so grateful that I have the family I have. I love my brothers and sisters. Spending time together now that we're all old enough to appreciate it means so much more than it did say, 15 years ago, when we had to all cram into the old dodge colt for the ever-so-pleasant 10 hour drive up to Burley. Times now are much more pleasant when you add time, maturity, love, experiences, and the ability to drive in separate cars. My family makes me happy. Church. I am so lost for words when it comes to truly expressing how I feel for the Church in my life. Not too long before I left on my mission, I remember my dad talking to me about how although he never really had much to say and that you really didn't hear him share his testimony much, he assured me that it was there, it was strong, and that I needed to know that. I'm finding that I am much the same way. The mission aside, I really don't share my testimony. But I can say that I am glad to have the principles that are the very basis of the Church guiding my life. Church makes me happy.
I feel like I'm beginning to ramble here, so I'll wrap this up. Maybe it has been the whole to-do with Michael being ordained an elder today and contemplating really being in the temple with my wife whom I love so much, maybe it's been the job advancement opportunity that has come along (which I'm still not sure about), maybe it has been an income tax refund that just might help us get some of our bills paid, and maybe it has been a couple dozen other things that are good in life right now. But whatever is bad in life, there will always be some things to promote just enough happy time to make it through. I love my life. I'm happy.