Nate Says:

Another sunday night posting missed. Maybe I spoke a little soon when I made the whole 3 weeks makes a habit deal. Whatever.
So the biggest thing on my mind is this: I had my interview with the bishop this past sunday night. And without going into too much detail, my portion of punishment/repentance process is finally done and over with. And punishment isn't even the right word but it's the first one that comes to mind as I write this. So last week Stac was given the green light and even given a calling (as crumby as it is). I, on the other hand, was still disfellowshipped. For anyone who might not know what all that involves it mainly means I can't do many of the normal things which, being a normal member of the Church, are really basic things. I haven't been allowed to take the sacrament for almost 2 1/2 years now (thats about how long it's been since Stac and I first got ourselves in deep). When the sacrament represents something so important and renewing and spiritually uplifting as it does, that really wasn't that big of a deal for the first several sundays. 2 1/2 years later, I feel like I have truly missed it and the spiritual strength that it provides. I haven't been able to hold a calling. give prayers in general meetings, I haven't been allowed to exercise the priesthood, and I haven't been allowed to go to the temple (which is one of the biggest things I've learned that I miss the most.) (Also for those who might not know- being able/allowed to go to the temple requires the highest level of worthiness and desire to do what God says and follow the specific guidelines that the Church has set as the standard. The temple is very very important and the top of the spirituality chart.) Anyways, I feel like I've really missed out and been given plenty time to ... thin about what I've done... ? Sounds pretty cliche. But it works. So I had the opportunity to meet with the bishop and his counselors sunday and long, personal story short, I'm back in good standing with the Church and we're talking about getting temple recommends for Stac and I both not this next sunday (General Conference) but the sunday after that. Which means that hopefully we'll be able to get to the temple soon and regularly and as soon as our year is up we're shooting to be sealed come June. I feel like I'm just breezing through this all pretty casually but we've both had a couple days for it to sink in. And I am happier now than I've been in a long, long time. Knowing that I could be in the temple with my wife really is an exciting thought and if I weren't so tired I might go into some more detail. But not tonight.
I'm still waiting for April 10th to roll around so i can (hopefully) move forward with the corrections job in NLV. With each day that goes by, and the day of the lie detector test getting nearer and nearer, I am getting so nervous that I'm going to be so nervous that it reads me wrong or something. I'm trying not to be, but I really am wishing now that I'd taken one in the past for any reason and knew what to expect. I figure they're the professionals and know what they're doing. All I have to do is be truthful.
I feel like I want to write more but can't think of anything to write about right now. So I guess that's it for now.